New March Post

I’ve been nudged to update my blog. Mostly by my sweet sister. I kept telling her that I really had not had much to say lately. But here goes……….

Have you ever struggled with fear? Fear of spiders, bears, wolves? I admit, I was scared of bears & wolves – I had nightmares about them sitting outside my window at night. What about other fears? Fear of rejection? Fear of failure? Fear of love? Fear of people?

I went to Fordyce last Saturday and stayed until Sunday afternoon. Laura kept me busy with her new square foot garden plots – from the trip to Lowe’s on the way to mixing up the soil for the planting. That was actually fun, if a bit dirty. I had fun with the kids – Emily didn’t want me to leave. Ethan gave me lots of hugs. We went to the big city of Bearden for dinner on Saturday night at the Bear City Diner. The BBQ chicken was very good. So were the mashed potatoes and corn nuggets!! Not the healthiest, but not the worst either. I’ve been trying to watch what I eat more and exercise. Since I’m teaching 3 classes of Strong Women on Mondays & Wednesdays, it’s a little easier! But I need to get out and walk more – the weather has been so nice lately.

I’m started thinking that I have finally arrived in Searcy – people really do check out what is in my buggy at the grocery store! And, even though I don’t like it, NOT having Laura and John here has probably been good for me in some ways. It has forced me to get out on my own more. I’ve met a lot of people in the past few months, and find myself staying after church to visit instead of just leaving. Of course, I seem to know more mature people but they are fun too!

Thanks to Liz, my heart-to-heart partner and AWH guru, I met a new friend, Scott. Liz talked to him about me, and he gave me a call. We got together at the Underground and talked for several hours. He’s very easy to be around, to talk to. He introduced me to his Sunday night dominos group and that has become a really enjoyable end to a great Sunday. We go to Jim & Kathy Johnstons, and usually the crew consists of Jennifer Hurd, Bill Spear, Scott, and me. Last Sunday night, Scott’s Dad Larry came and he was a lot of fun. Scott is not demanding, is very easygoing, and apparently patient. I’ve just taken the “whatever” philosophy – take it as it comes. Although, I admit that I am missing him this week – he’s in Italy with his Dad! And yes, I’m probably envious too – I would rather be in Rome too. I’m not really what is going on, but I’m trying to enjoy it. If I wonder what he’s thinking about me, I can only imagine what he thinks about me. And that’s scary – I don’t wear my heart on my sleeve and I’m probably not the easiest person to read. But anyway……

My next trip is to Washington, DC with my best friend Elissa and her mom, Mrs. Sue. They have never been there and we should be there during the peak of the cherry blossoms blooming. I know we won’t get bored, but now I’m worried that they want to try to pack too much into the week. I was sort of planning our attack since I’ve been there, but then Elissa threw in a Nationals baseball game and other things I had not really thought about! Oh well, I’m sure we’ll have a blast. I bought my plant ticket the other day.